Epilougue to Cathcher in the RyeEssay Preview: Epilougue to Cathcher in the RyeReport this essayItÐÐŽÐЇs been a year since I left the hospital. Sometimes, however, I think back on those days and wonder how I put up with all the sessions with the psychiatrist. I think he was phony and all listening all the time and trying to get into my life like he controlled me or something.
Anyways, I went back to school in September and decided IÐÐŽÐЇll try out everything my parents and the guys at the hospital said to do. They wanted me to and apply myself so I figured IÐÐŽÐЇll give it a shot. I canÐÐŽÐЇt say school has not been hard and everything especially when you have Pencey Prep as a background. All you learnt down there was how to be phony.
My new school is very interesting. Everyone seems to know what they are doing. Not that many phonies. IÐÐŽÐЇm making changes, trying to let go of Allie and becoming a better person. I still wonder what it would be like if Allie was here but like Pheobe said, ÐÐŽÐoHeÐÐŽÐЇs gone.ÐЎб Something you may also be happy to know is that I donÐÐŽÐЇt lie that much anymore. IÐÐŽÐЇm also passing all my classes with fairly decent grades. I know I can do better but that is something IÐÐŽÐЇll work on later.
Contemplating on the future, as you may have noticed has never been something I enjoy doing. The psychoanalyst session though, I think kinda helped ÐЎЮcause now I actually think I am not so mad at the world anymore. My parents are still in a faraway world but Pheobe is growing up and acting more and more like my mother rather than a little sister. Old D.B. and his phony self got married to the English babe. He thinks heÐÐŽÐЇs all grown up now. IÐÐŽÐЇm also starting to socialize more and making new friends. Not that much of a bad idea as long as they donÐÐŽÐЇt become phonies. Then its bad and the reason for coming out of my shell and all my hard work is defeated. IÐÐŽÐЇm happy though and hope you are happy for me too.
I hope that you enjoy this article and see you in the world. I understand a lot of you might be upset at your inability to make friends with other girls, especially in a family that has you struggling with a difficult decision. But once you start having new problems, the whole point of this article is that, once you stop seeing you as a bad person and start seeing life as a wonderful one, everyone is happier with you, there is less suffering, and we all have a good time. Even though itÐÐÐs hard. And it has been hard with your life. You probably feel a lot like a failure for a lot of it. I was happy and really happy that the world didnìt make me feel like I could go any harder and have this great experience. I didnìt feel like I could grow to have so much fun and have such a good time at all and I felt I could get so many other people to like me or to like my love of their own stuff. And thatµt is just the beginning. I wish people a happy and blessed future. And if we didnìt want to have life and see it as a place where we could enjoy each other’s company and give happiness, IÐÐ would do more work on my own and get more friends. Thatµt is how I wish I really was like this before. I wish people a happy future and happy times. And if the future is one where I can live and really enjoy whatever I want. And if you donít find satisfaction with who you really are by the time you come out with your life, you will still be around and there are many more people out there who love you as well as you do, so I think that you will appreciate that I will not get mad about it and be happy with it and enjoy other people. I have no illusions about everything, but I do think that you will need to focus and focus on all that you can because you are going to spend a lot more time and energy on living in this little community and trying to find love and that will take time, but you may be able to learn more and work on it, so thank you. In closing, IÐЎдs story is one story that has been told and will make you smile and want to see this stuff become something much bigger and greater. I don´t know about you but you didnìt tell you