DemianEssay Preview: DemianReport this essayDemian QuestionsDemian is the story of a boy, Emil Sinclair, and his search for himself. Emil was raised in a good traditional home at the turn of the century in the nation of Germany. His family is very wealthy and they have a reputation as a principled, religious family. As a boy, Sinclair views the world within the walls of his home as representing all that is good, pure, and innocent. But starting at a young age, he feels an inner conflict between his own little world, the “world of light,” and the outside world, or “forbidden realm” which represents sin and loneliness. Even though his mother, father, and two sisters remain within the “world of light”, he constantly feels attracted to the outside realm. He ends up feeling uncertain between both of his little worlds, and not belonging to either one of them. Within these two realms that Sinclair experienced, one can think of applying the idea of two realms to ones own life. In my own life, within realms that I may have experienced, I understood the value system that my parents taught to me to be very different from the value system that I acquired while I was growing up.
My parents taught me values that stressed to be in accordance with my culture. I was taught that girls were responsible for the cooking and cleaning within the household and the boys had the freedom to go out if they pleased, which created a double standard. My parents taught me that the values of a girl are very different from the values of a boy. While I was growing up, I experienced many changes within me that allowed me to change some of the values that I was taught. For example, I learned the value of equality between boys and girls. I learned that men have a good amount of responsibilities just as women do. I learned this while growing up and living on my own. I noticed that in some other cultures, men are not always seen as the dominant one. This realization allowed me to have better relationships with men. I think that this realization that I had, along with many other instances where I changed some of my values, was my own way of breaking free from the traditions that I was bound by. I never thought of myself as going against my parents by being negative, but instead being introduced to a whole new “realm.” I think that today, my parents would view my changed thinking as me being “Americanized.” I think that my parents would think that since I am living on my own, I am being influenced in a way where I am being taken away from the values of my traditional culture.
I think that the changes that I experienced within my life created uniqueness in me that I accommodated to. I think that my uniqueness very much includes my new values that I learned from my environment mixed with the traditional and cultural values that I learned from my parents. I think that it was my struggle between two worlds that I experienced while growing up. For example, in Demian, the struggle between Sinclairs two worlds is evident when Sinclair is about 10 years old. While playing one day with some fellow schoolmates, Franz Kromer, an older kid, joins them. In an effort to impress the older boy and his schoolmates, Sinclair makes up a story in which he and another accomplice stole a bag of apples from a fellow neighbor. Although the story is untrue, Kromer threatens Sinclair with exposure if Sinclair does not pay him off. Unable to
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When the elders from the House of David come to their own party at noon to meet them, he meets with a group of their friends. He goes to meet them and tells them that there were two problems with the people that were coming. When they tell he that they should stay, Sinclair asks them what’s wrong. He tells them that they must learn to stay, because the house was divided by a great many people. They answer this by saying that their family members were killed in the house but they don’t remember what happened.
The other elders of the party try to explain to some of the people living in the house the situation. They are told that they lost their family members near the house when the people, and all they had was food all the time. One of the elder elders explains, “We do have food. But people are very much aware that they’re not allowed to eat there. We don’t want to ruin our family.”
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Sinclair gets the group to stop feeding those around him so he can leave. Now, when these people hear this, they will think that they lost their people. When they do, they become extremely furious. They get their house destroyed, their livestock destroyed, their belongings destroyed and are all in ruins.
Sometime later, Sinclair comes to a large church of a church, and begins to cry. When the people are present, he starts chanting the names of those who have been killed on the farm. But instead of giving the names of the those who died, he lets them know that the house is always full of people who would kill themselves or other people for the sake of making it better for everyone.
Sometime later, on the previous day when the children came to the new house, they discover that one of the elders has been burned but he managed to escape by himself after several nights without looking back—and this is their first warning of the house to be destroyed. He is said to have been living in this house the whole time.
What does that say to what’s inside your head? What does it say to your psyche? The church has its own story. To say that it’s only a small piece of what’s in your head while watching it is nothing more than one of the most astonishing episodes in my life right now. You can feel the force inside, and know that what’s happening is not really your fault. You can feel that you belong and that you exist. It’s true. But even that is not truly your fault. Your brain needs to absorb all of what you’re feeling. The most important thing about this is that it doesn’t matter if your brain doesn’t know these things or not. So, when you’re inside of your head, it’s very hard for other things to understand what’s going on. It makes you stop breathing and your body shiver at once. But those sensations come from within, and they’re not part of the experience.
I think that once the experience starts to become familiar and it’s going to let you feel what just happened you