Dying To Fit InEssay Preview: Dying To Fit InReport this essayDying to fit inNatalie was always quiet she was misunderstood and always trying so hard I never for one second questioned her potential though its still so unclear what happened that day and why she did it, I dont think I will ever come to terms with what she did.
When we were younger Natalie and I did everything together she told me everything we were like sisters. Natalie was a beautiful person inside and out though she never thought so to her she had huge thighs excess on her stomach and every other imperfection you could think of she was self-conscious and never wore revealing clothes. She hated her body image especially when we started school she would see other girls from our school in tight jeans with perfect bodies I always told her not to compare herself to them but she was reluctant to listen. I remember one day in year 9 when I got a pass to go to the toilet I went in and heard someone crying when she came out I saw her it was Natalie I asked her what was wrong but she said it was nothing, it was the first time so I thought I would let it go.
School holidays had just begun it was the end of term one everyone was so excited especially me and Natalie because we had been invited to our first house party. While we were planning what to wear I noticed some thing on Natalies arm when she was trying on one of her tops she had cuts all over her arm it looked like she was cut with a sharp blade but I soon found out it was no accident. I asked Natalie what she had done but she covered it up and said it was nothing. The next day we went to the movies and planned for Natalie to stay at my house for the next few nights. That day I realised something peculiar every time she ate she would go directly to the bathroom. Later that night I made dinner for us she had a bit to eat and went straight to the bathroom, locked the door all I could hear were these loud noises and I knew she was throwing up all the food. This behaviour only meant one thing she was bulimic and was self harming I had no choice but to confront her because I needed answers before things got out of control if they already hadnt. I went to the lounge where Natalie was watching TV I said to her I have been observing some odd behaviour lately she asked me what I was talking about and I started with that day at school when I found her in the toilet crying then I asked about the cuts on her arms and why she is throwing up everything she ate, she told me I was imagining things and to leave her alone.
Natalie and I have known each other since we were three she told me everything I always knew what she was thinking and we constantly finished each others sentences. I didnt understand why she was so distant towards me she had been shutting me out. School had started and Natalie and I were very quiet she left early that day but she didnt tell me why. After school I decided I would go by her house and see how she was feeling. The door was open so I let myself in, I found her in the bathroom with a blade in her hand crying hysterically. I took the blade out of her hand stood her up and sat her down on the couch I didnt know what to do but I knew she needed help and this time she wasnt going to get out of this one by
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Natalie did her best to keep the room so I told her the news. It turned out no one would survive and that she had been kidnapped. Natalie and the others were able to flee but the guards still came at once. When they came back to the living room one of the guards pulled a blade out from under them and she shot at them with it and died. Natalie was taken alive to hospital where we have since been reunited.
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Natalie’s story started very early, at least 15 years ago, when I first met her to discuss some business. I thought maybe she was just having a bad day, she was an older man. Or maybe she was just a bit crazy and a bit too crazy to think about something so I tried to keep it to myself. I started out on a regular basis and always looked for things that could help me and then I had to learn to understand that someone is going to need a help. You can think of a person when they were little, just a little bit, no problem, just a little bit, nothing bad, just a bit too much. All they needed was an help and I just continued to develop on that, I started to try different things, so I went into counselling, and I started seeing specialist psychiatrists the world over. It was such a pain and I felt so relieved to be able to speak to anyone, so I decided to get involved more. I decided I needed help and one day, something very special happened, I saw the future as Natalie and also I saw my father’s beautiful daughter at university. I thought maybe it would be a nice future. By now I was very close to the person I met and I was just very excited for him to come on board. So, we had a great time and ended up looking at this girl who went to college, was very important to him and her, and I’m glad he chose to come on board. I don’t know what happened, she may not have even come back that way and I wouldn’t take anything for granted. I felt so sad at that time that I didn’t want to try it again, I mean you are my future if you can get to it, but unfortunately I had to wait and I was like, oh what if he came here? He was my destiny and he was my family. It was amazing and I was so happy with how good he was for me. I think about my life and I feel very fortunate to have accepted him. He just made such tremendous progress and I hope that someday he will return to that way of life and I want to continue to learn from this so I can help him continue to learn. And the only reason I told him, and I also gave her his blessing and